Hypomanic off days

This is a class of off days that I’ve noticed (off days are those I don’t work). Today is merely an example. Here’s some vocab for reference: Bipolar II. Since I’ve been saying “manic” a lot lately, I should clarify that Creeper and I are occasionally prone to hypomania (type II), whereas aspiring Army sniper Mohammadson (who was unable to run a full mile) was full-blown manic (type I, psychosis and all, see page 1 of the WebMD link).

How I knew: I woke up at 6 AM, which is usually when I pee and drink 20-30 oz of water and drift back off again. Today, I was restless and my creative brain was going nuts (mostly I was watching a bass fretboard in my mind’s eye as a couple of songs wrote themselves), but I tried to go back to sleep anyway out of duty and habit. After maybe 20 minutes I gave up, realizing that I’ve seen this before. This is the sort of day where I put out 8 long posts and clean up my practical to-do list, and there’s nothing wrong with any of that. In fact, I’m interested in triggering this sort of high-energy state on properly scheduled, creativity-optimizing days.

Interesting prior stuff: Yesterday, I spent the first 6-7 hours of the day reading whatever I felt like. These unfocused reading marathons are where all my best info comes from. This would be unremarkable- it’s how I usually spend the first part of my off days- but I include it because I understand reading marathons are not a weekend routine for most people. Afterward, I indulged in a couple of interesting ways that would not suggest a healthy rebound- I ate probably 8 cookies’ worth of cookie dough, drank two glasses of wine, and played three hours of Final Fantasy X when I only intended to play one hour. I wouldn’t normally mention drinking two glasses of wine (because it’s not much for me) except that I’ve noticed alcohol consumption often precedes “up” days. I went to sleep around 1, which is my normal bedtime.

Thought 1: It’s entirely possible that I’ve got the time frame wrong, and the hypomania kicked in yesterday with the “risky pleasure-seeking behaviors” (I don’t exactly live on the edge, so a cookie dough binge puts me well beyond my baseline). That would explain why I slept only five hours and woke up feeling rested and energetic (again, above baseline- I’m a morning person to begin with).

Thought 2: Possibly, I’ve been triggering hypomania by accidentally fulfilling some nutrition requirement I’d been neglecting, like when a person first drinks Koanic’s shrimp broth. (The cookie dough binge certainly counts as carbo loading, if nothing else.) I might also be fulfilling some analogous mental hygiene requirement that isn’t well-understood, maybe by unintentionally giving my willpower the day off.

Thought 3: There’s an off chance that I simply slept really well. There’s a certain logic to this, because high blood sugar, relaxation, and mediocre alcohol intake all promote better sleep. This would be pretty exciting, because it suggests I could harness a great deal of potential energy. I think probably not, though maybe it’s a contributing factor.

Or maybe prediction of the occurrence is less tractable than predicting the lifetime of an isotopic atom, fuck all if I know.

I’ve also noticed a writeprint marker: use of parentheses and tangents goes through the roof. This is merely a symptom of heightened lateral thinking. I’m happy to note that my thoughts this time are at least structured, if not well-ordered.

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3 Responses to Hypomanic off days

  1. Aeoli Pera says:

    There’s a lot to reply to here, so I might take a couple of days.

    >Hypomania has a higher incidence in Europeans (the studies buried on my hard drive, ill see if I can find it later)

    Would appreciate that, although I’d take your word for it.

    >and I think it is a Neanderthal trait (per this http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22036090), for increased productivity during periods of harsher winters and leaner times.

    I remember either Steve Sailer or Scott Adams saying something like this. If there is only one form of the disorder, then observation suggests it must be expressed differently in different populations.

    >I also think its symptoms that are classified as a lack of sleep and increased productivity are just labeled that way because society says you are supposed to sleep 8 hours a night.

    I also say this, although from experience I’m open to the possibility of a 4 to 6-hour night of sleep, and a one-hour nap after lunch.

    >Deep Socket focus can keep you up all night if you are not careful. If you have a job this can be a problem,

    Oh believe me, I know. This is why I’m extremely careful about which sorts of activities I allow after work and before bedtime. Risky behavior is only adaptive when you’re desperate, highly robust, or antifragile.

    > It also lends credence as to why AMUDs have such large frontal lobes.

    I don’t follow. Please explain?

    >As you have mentioned before, and I have noticed myself, THAL brains seem to operate in Theta waves.

    If I’ve said this, I can’t remember it. But I can’t remember a lot of stuff I’ve said. True story: the other day I “red-pilled” on my own archived posts. The switch to semantic memory can be a bitch.

    > The same frequency the brain oscillates at during meditation. Not only that meditation increases activity in the frontal lobe.

    I wonder if this is why I have such a hard time praying for more than five seconds.

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