This is a class of off days that I’ve noticed (off days are those I don’t work). Today is merely an example. Here’s some vocab for reference: Bipolar II. Since I’ve been saying “manic” a lot lately, I should clarify that Creeper and I are occasionally prone to hypomania (type II), whereas aspiring Army sniper Mohammadson (who was unable to run a full mile) was full-blown manic (type I, psychosis and all, see page 1 of the WebMD link).
How I knew: I woke up at 6 AM, which is usually when I pee and drink 20-30 oz of water and drift back off again. Today, I was restless and my creative brain was going nuts (mostly I was watching a bass fretboard in my mind’s eye as a couple of songs wrote themselves), but I tried to go back to sleep anyway out of duty and habit. After maybe 20 minutes I gave up, realizing that I’ve seen this before. This is the sort of day where I put out 8 long posts and clean up my practical to-do list, and there’s nothing wrong with any of that. In fact, I’m interested in triggering this sort of high-energy state on properly scheduled, creativity-optimizing days.
Interesting prior stuff: Yesterday, I spent the first 6-7 hours of the day reading whatever I felt like. These unfocused reading marathons are where all my best info comes from. This would be unremarkable- it’s how I usually spend the first part of my off days- but I include it because I understand reading marathons are not a weekend routine for most people. Afterward, I indulged in a couple of interesting ways that would not suggest a healthy rebound- I ate probably 8 cookies’ worth of cookie dough, drank two glasses of wine, and played three hours of Final Fantasy X when I only intended to play one hour. I wouldn’t normally mention drinking two glasses of wine (because it’s not much for me) except that I’ve noticed alcohol consumption often precedes “up” days. I went to sleep around 1, which is my normal bedtime.
Thought 1: It’s entirely possible that I’ve got the time frame wrong, and the hypomania kicked in yesterday with the “risky pleasure-seeking behaviors” (I don’t exactly live on the edge, so a cookie dough binge puts me well beyond my baseline). That would explain why I slept only five hours and woke up feeling rested and energetic (again, above baseline- I’m a morning person to begin with).
Thought 2: Possibly, I’ve been triggering hypomania by accidentally fulfilling some nutrition requirement I’d been neglecting, like when a person first drinks Koanic’s shrimp broth. (The cookie dough binge certainly counts as carbo loading, if nothing else.) I might also be fulfilling some analogous mental hygiene requirement that isn’t well-understood, maybe by unintentionally giving my willpower the day off.
Thought 3: There’s an off chance that I simply slept really well. There’s a certain logic to this, because high blood sugar, relaxation, and mediocre alcohol intake all promote better sleep. This would be pretty exciting, because it suggests I could harness a great deal of potential energy. I think probably not, though maybe it’s a contributing factor.
Or maybe prediction of the occurrence is less tractable than predicting the lifetime of an isotopic atom, fuck all if I know.
I’ve also noticed a writeprint marker: use of parentheses and tangents goes through the roof. This is merely a symptom of heightened lateral thinking. I’m happy to note that my thoughts this time are at least structured, if not well-ordered.