I usually pray in the shower. It helps me focus, and concentration is a huge problem in my prayer life these days. I’ve been experimenting with mental techniques that I’ve picked up from what I know about the law of attraction, like visualization and mantras. The way I figure is, we know the law is true and the tools work, so as long as I keep my focus on God I’ll only be attracting godly spirits and godly spiritual stuff.
Today, I was doing a visualization of something I’ve been requesting for several days running. Almost immediately, the back of my head started to frisson in a way that I usually associate with a feeling of cosmic terror, like after an old hag experience or something. It was about twice as intense as I’ve ever felt, and spanned from the cerebellum to the midpoint of the parietal bone, and between the left and right squamous sutures. My scalp muscles also became very tense in this area and pulled my ears back.
Inside my head, I spontaneously chanted the mantra “Increase our faith” three times in the cadence of the train that goes “I think I can” in that old children’s book. (Incidentally, if you ever want to know what TPTB want us to believe, read children’s books.) This particular mantra was probably picked because the case I’ve been arguing is that divine intervention would increase our faith, and increased faith would empower more divine intervention (ref Mark 6:5). This entire experience lasted about 3-5 seconds and recurred twice with different subject matter, with the three episodes being about 15 seconds apart. Afterward I felt spent, reflective, and fulfilled, like after a particularly impactful dream. I felt confident that God has great power to work in the world if we ask him to.
Usually when I use the word faith I mean it in the archaic and more correct sense where we get “faithfulness”, as in the fidelity end of the trust equation. However, this experience made me highly aware of the modern meaning of belief or conviction.
Take from all this what you will, I share because I care.