1. Graduate in December.
Bonus:
1a. Graduate summa cum laude. (Just means no big screwups)
1b. Raise GPA to 4.15. (Hard)
Subgoals:
1c. Finish operating systems HW before class begins.
1d. Finish networking HW before class begins.
2. Get a job offer from [internship employer].
I’ll have to put on a good show at my internship this summer. This is the main reason I want to finish the networking class homework ahead of time, because that class is supposed to be tough and I’m hoping to take it in the summer during the internship.
3. No late nights!
That means no staying up past midnight. I’m just plain done with that shit at this point in my life. It’ll be tough because students and coders both have a cultural expectation of staying up late EVERY night, because students and coders are the dumbest people on the planet. Silver and bronze medals, respectively:
3a. Less than 10 late nights.
3b. Less than 30 late nights.
Secondary goals
- Nofap (Or less than 10, less than 30, respectively.) Subgoal: Listen through the EasyPeasy audiobook quarterly to keep my brainwashing up to date.
- Exercise: I’m switching this one over to a pipeline, because I’ve been making ground on everything steadily just by sticking to my comfy routine. And there are a bunch of leftover exercise goals from previous years. So instead of doing a list of goals for this year, I’ll just do my routine and focus on one goal at a time. Right now I’m focusing on getting my max deadlift up to 420 (blaze it). After that, I’ll focus on hitting the 250×5 bench press. When I hit that, I’ll pick a new focus from the list.
- Write “Why I’m a Christian” post. For some reason I got it into my head that it needs to be good, so I’ve been slow-boiling it for a while with the hope of having no fat on it. It’s been decades since I was big into apologetics, so I’ll need some review.
- Read John Seymour book that I got for Christmas, “The New Complete Book Of Self Sufficiency”. It’s mostly overview, but I need the overview because I don’t know what I don’t know.
- Do the Motors and Generators kit.
Aeoli Pera 
my neoteny is what made me successful.
You do realize going to college on the internet is mentally ill behavior according Psychiatry. As is using a computer.
So it doesnt matter if you graduate. Your a crazy person and nothing you say will be taken seriously.
Oh being an IT professional is mentally ill behavior too.
`On the whole no, it was the realitive power of jewry, technological and organizational limits of control and mayhaps a residual essence of honor predating christianity.`
No it was the Protestants. All other Denominations.
Now I will say, in my personal experience, which is objective because I come at things like a Scientist, a Jew never did anything to me.
Protties and Novus Ordo Catholics did things to me, and you too in several instances if you view the data.
In the Pope’s own backyard did Humanism arise. The kernel of the cult of Neochristianity that grips this world in its deathgrip.
This may be too difficult of a question, but ai’ll ask it anyway: how do you get to romanticism without humanism?
For reference:
Humanism: an outlook or system of thought attaching prime importance to human rather than divine or supernatural matters. Humanist beliefs stress the potential value and goodness of human beings, emphasize common human needs, and seek solely rational ways of solving human problems.
Romanticism: a movement in the arts and literature that originated in the late 18th century, emphasizing inspiration, subjectivity, and the primacy of the individual.
they dont overlap if you dont need them to what a silly question from Aeoli.
I am not agreed to the definition you have presented for romanticism.
Nevertheless I shall try to answer your question as best as I can for the moment.
Ideas do often spring from previous thought, nevertheless the saying nothing new under the sun is close to being true.
As I am ignorant of the history of the movement of romanticism early beginnings I can only say humanism idolizes man; in many ways it is taking after the bible’s anthromorphic character so in a sense the old(and new) testaments is the ideological predecessor for humanism.
I suppose romanticism arose in part in reaction to the sterile goddess of reason and gross material mammonizing of previous and contemporary era. It is true that romanticism and humanism focus on man but their focus is different, one believes in a universal plastic man and focuses on a mostly mythical progress, whilst romanticism focuses more on man the villagers son the local placed and hereditary hero, national instead of international consciousness; higher ideal despite drab and mundane “reality”.
Could romanticism have arisen without humanism, despite the historic truth of the latter preceding the former, I believe it possible for the simple reason that romanticism’s focus was on the particular rather than the universal.(though humanism was the frame for republics/ democracy of which nation states may not have seen the need for romanticist propaganda, taking wind out of its sails.)
For reason and humanity form part of the catchphrase of what romanticism reacted to, these phrases could have been changed to serve the moneyed kangs with different dross, reaction and action uniting in bringing different consequences in this world.
So ultimately I believe possible, but in a different form at the end of the hypothetical past.
Thank you for attempting it, your thoughts are more or less internally consistent. The issue, as you noted, is that you’re using a definition of romanticism that would be better described as Aryanism. The reason for this, if you’re interested, is that the OG Nazis were appealing to Goethe and company because these were prestigious secular German figures, but they downplayed the actual, factual philosophy of the German Romantics because it was intensely individualistic. And Nazis today venerate the OG Nazis in the same way as Christians venerate the early church fathers.
are your sundays really this busy sometimes? i think i had plenty of chances for success in my life i could possibly have been a remarkable man at one point in my life according to the words of many!
Yes, I usually do my weekly chores on Sunday after church, including my plan for the week, which takes about four hours. And after that I’ve been coding because I have something due tonight.
If you want instant responses, I’d actually recommend Chat GPT. You may find it a more stimulating conversationalist than you’d expect.
I’m not kidding, by the way. I ask it a lot of questions in between coding questions and it’s usually interesting.
im trying but i think AI is very neurotic. like robots would be more neurotic than any of us especially a lot of its emotional qualities.
It’s been unfailingly polite for me.
okay well none of my questions are even going through there is a bug with this and i think the AI is just gaslighting at this point.
did you know that technology will gaslight you faster than any other entity in this known Universe?
yeah its true look it up!
Can you post some screenshots or transcripts?
its flat out not working can you help me fix the issue once i start making conversation with it then i would eagerly post the transcript of the convo on here.
Not at the moment, my laptop is getting repaired. Anyway, I’d just be Googling whatever problem you’re having.
sounds like a rough situation for me then.
life is a rat race though and i dont expect everything to go my way since people are always latching onto whatever they have and holding it for dear life around me.
That’s downright understanding of you.
i appreciate honest words from honest people.
I’m on my laptop now. What kind of device and browser are you using? Are you using chat.openai.com?
Lenovo yes.
Browser?
it says it reached capacity on the website.
I’ve heard this from someone else who was using it, but I’ve gone on it eight or nine times without having a problem. Maybe it discriminates?
thats a woke question.
Which means we got to take it way back. Pope Pius the XII was not the last duly elected Pope as he sent priests to Psychotherapists and thought psychiatric drugs could serve a purpose. They dont. We are going to have to go back to the reformation.
Ideally, 1096 AD. And every Muslim in Christendom in Europe is hunted down and killed, every Jew is given safe passage back to Israel, every witch burnt, every LEO made homeless, and every Psychiatric Abuse Victim given a new lease on life. This is the way.
Why so terribly soft on the vile jew? At least the Muhammaden is mostly open in his opposition.
“. . . every Jew is given safe passage back to Israel . . .”
Why? Palestine belongs to Christendom. The tiny hats have no more right to it than the Mahometans.
than the Mahometans do*
“Nofap (Or less than 10, less than 30, respectively.)”
Im confused did you break? Less than 10 days? Less than 30 days? Did you break?
Because I didnt:
I haven’t yet, no.
Words are the most powerful things sometimes.
“I’ll have to put on a good show at my internship this summer.” just go out for drinks with the bosses, AW, and tell them what was what when you were a cathouse bouncer. You’ll get whatever position you want, even women want to hear that shit after 5 beers. Hell ive been here for years but you keep skipping that part, while we sit here like patience on a monument…
Also No; “im going to grow potatoes” and “get a family”. i’ll report you to the FBI for promoting I.N.C.E.L ideology “by implication” or absence thereof…erhmm.. youknowwhatimsaying
…so you see
“Do the Motors and Generators kit.” I like this, no wonder Boneflour knows whats up, the peoples champion. You can know the lay of the land too, if you move to the big apple…
What would you want to hear about the cathouse in particular?
They don’t have penises like we do, it’s this weird little vertical hole.
can you clearly visualize female anatomies in your head? if you can youre probably not gay!
Oh, and trufax for a minute, all women want to hear about that after zero beers because they all fantasize about being on the pole.
you have no knowledge about anything Aeoli. you are a sheep!
Women are hours and want to feel good. Nobody knows how women operate. Sure we can have evolutionary theories about it close enough, but theres a lot of chicks in relationships, or married to some guy because he lays good pipe. Or no reason at all. We can say social conditioning, but it doesnt map when you break it down.
My one old friend is a total stoner, plays tons of video games, didnt have a job for awhile, but has 3 kids with his sort of high school sweetheart. And shes an 8. This dude is fucked too when his Father dies as his Father is Doctor, so a lot of his bills get paid by that. Rent, cellphone, car etc. Now my old friend has a communications degree, but works at his fathers doctors office with doing a lot of support staff clerical work.
Totally not in this chicks league, but they still have kids.
Ive seen it in othet situations. In one the dude found out the total babe was getting married and flew all the way across the country, barged back into this chicks life, and she left her fiance for him. Hes a stoner, dirty hippie, and doesnt work. Shes a total babe of an english teacher who every male teenager wanted to bone.
Again, theres a lot of relationships that make no sense.
*Women are whores that should say.
Good fortune!
I would personally skip the apologetics, one need not apologize for what one is, especially what one is born as; one should merely embrace it!
It’s not apologizing.
‘The word “apologetics” comes from the Greek word “apologia,” pronounced “ap-ol-og-ee’-ah.” It means, “a verbal defense.” ‘
https://carm.org/defending-the-faith/an-introduction-to-apologetics/
Oh, and thank you for the blessing. I hope 2023 is similarly a time of good fortune for you and yours.
Thank ye kindly.
Why defend what you are, so often it is “defend yourself white man, why should you live, why should you rule, why should we have to follow, why believe, why think, why love and hate?”
I love why questions, nevertheless this reflexive defend yourself is I know detrimental. Its only use is why do I believe and what effect is has on me, race, species, world, enviroment, fellow creatures ,etc.
Is it good proving only to oneself, not to detractors and only good when one tries to understand it as impartially as possible(for the man in question).
> Why defend what you are
Because the Bible tells us to, essentially. The instinct to do so only makes sense when the audience isn’t dark triad…so you can take it as a compliment that I’m explaining myself right now. But when dealing with idiots, degenerates, psychopaths, etc., the classic advice is “Never complain, never explain.”
For the past couple of months I’ve done little more than lazily study Latin and bits of the Vulgate. I don’t have the energy or motivation to go back to school or learn a trade, and the thought of getting another McJob makes me want to shoot myself.
Am I just a self-indulgent waste of space, or could the problem be biological? The only time I feel alive and/or happy is when I take amphetamines.
How old are you?
Just turned 32
Brace yourself for wisdom and good advice.
> Am I just a self-indulgent waste of space, or could the problem be biological?
You are currently a self-indulgent waste of space, and a person’s trajectory in life is more or less fixed when they’re about 28, give or take based on how late of a bloomer they are. The problem is partially biological but not genetic, because you’re dependent on amphetamines, which is an addiction you need to break as quickly as humanly possible so you can live a decent life. The other half of the problem, which isn’t biological, is that your expectations for life and yourself are way too high and you need to read and re-read the parts of the Bible that tell you to live humbly. You wouldn’t be asking if I weren’t right about that, but it may strike you funny because it’s probably buried deep in your socioeconomic class assumptions.
You don’t need life advice for how to get from A to B, you’re clearly very intelligent and retain some self-awareness, although the chemicals have been steadily chipping away at that for as long as you’ve been on them. What you need is a reason to live, after which your brain will kick into gear to figure out how to make it happen. This “reason” typically emerges over a few years after some initiation into manhood. Usually it’s a crisis where you learn life isn’t fair and the world isn’t just, and it’s up to you to make of it whatever you want insofar as you can. You’ll be unable to do this while taking amphetamines, so you’ll have to get off those first. That struggle may even end up being your initiation into manhood. My recommendations:
1. Read Maximum Achievement by Brian Tracy. It will explain the facts of life to you.
2. Read the Easy Peasy method and get off porn first.
3. Follow the high by using the same technique to get off amphetamines.
4. Plan on taking some time to adjust to your new energy levels as they normalize.
5. You’ll have your own plans by this point.
Living humbly means “what you can actually accomplish” NOT what you think you ought to be able to accomplish or what you think you can accomplish right this moment. For example, you don’t have what it takes to be a concert pianist because you have low conscientiousness and you’d be starting out too late, but you do have what it takes to get obsessed with it for a while, then practice on and off for a couple decades and become a proficient amateur. It’s easy to underestimate what you can accomplish in ten years with a bit of focus and easy to overestimate what you can accomplish in a six-month sprint.
Aeoli, I need to clarify that I don’t currently use amphetamines and never used them more frequently than once a week. The dose was too large to be therapeutic but probably not large enough to qualify as recreational. I stopped because the insomnia and ‘hangovers’ were awful, and I believe it harmed my once nearly photographic memory (talk about squandering a precious gift).
“You are currently a self-indulgent waste of space, and a person’s trajectory in life is more or less fixed when they’re about 28, give or take based on how late of a bloomer they are.”
Yeah, that’s pretty much what I feared. All I want now is a job that (1) pays a living wage and (2) doesn’t involve much manual labor. I gave up on women, ‘purpose’, etc. a long time ago.
“The other half of the problem, which isn’t biological, is that your expectations for life and yourself are way too high and you need to read and re-read the parts of the Bible that tell you to live humbly.”
I have to admit that my initial reaction to this was anger, but you’re right. I’m trying to cultivate humility (especially epistemic humility), but it doesn’t come easily. My principal expectations (as a naive kid) were that I’d easily get a do-nothing white collar job and a non-overweight wife. I grossly underestimated the difficulty of achieving the upper-middle class status that my older family members (seemed) to take for granted.
“It’s easy to underestimate what you can accomplish in ten years with a bit of focus and easy to overestimate what you can accomplish in a six-month sprint.”
I’m actually pretty happy with being a dilettante. My core interests solidified during my mid to late 20s (minus the recent interest in Latin), so I’ve gotten fairly proficient in those.
“What you need is a reason to live . . .”
I don’t think I’ve ever experienced love or a passionate interest in anything. I used to just assume that everyone else was only pretending to have dreams, ambitions, etc.
You must be of higher class than I was assuming.
Eh…I take that back. An upper cruster would be familiar with ambition.
I WISH I were wealthy. If I were, I’d probably pursue a PhD in Classical Studies, since I’d be able to do so at my leisure and wouldn’t have to make any sort of return on the investment.
One of my grandfathers was county superintendent of schools, and the other was a high earning accountant. My dad was a high-ish level civil servant. My brother worked for a major DoD contractor designing . . . well, he couldn’t say. None of their wives had to work outside of the home.
I’ve been like this since I was 14, maybe younger. I think I’m probably more schizoid than aspie.
No, that’s my narcissism speaking. I just like the idea of being able to style myself ‘doctor’. I probably would try to get into a Classics program, though. I think everyone should be able to read Greek and Latin.
No. Its not you. Its them. Id need more details but I bet your the scapegoat. You have to sequester yourself. But then these assholes figure out that means you are routing around them and come for you harder. So then you have to go live in van so you can drive away. Or a car. Or a Subaru if you really want to fuck with these assholes. Once you have it down, you will be standing in line at the gas station, or walking down the street and extremely attractive women will being giving you iois from across a snow covered field.
Are you making fun of me? That’s really not necessary :(
No, he’s just a narcissist who casts every aspect of his life as being martyred for his superiority. As it happens, he’s spent some time living in a van, therefore according to him this is the mark of a superior man. You could take it as a compliment that he’s suggesting it, but I’d recommend just ignoring the other commenters around here. They’re all broken people.
`he’s just a narcissist
How so? And frankly your mind reading. Ive never thought those things.
`As it happens, he’s spent some time living in a van, therefore according to him this is the mark of a superior man.`
No I havent. A truck, a car, and another car. Hotel room for 6 months+.
Again, the issue here is you. You’re an unimaginitive twerp locked into a limiting reality tunnel. And I highly suspect your parents still pay for your rent and car. Or the cars in their name. Try doing everything yourself for once. I mean everything.
Cut the cord already.
And Im not a narcissist. I just know how to think properly, methodically, and long term. Something others cant/wont do.
The notion of home ownerownership, or apartment ownership is insane. It forces you to have contact and rely on people that are dumber than monkeys.
`Are you making fun of me?`
No Im not. Thats likely what the issue is. Your being scapegoated. Victimized. If your in America, or any where really, nobody wants to talk about this because it means we are abusing, and revictimizing all the people that dont need that.
“Your being scapegoated. Victimized.”
I wouldn’t say that I am presently. I think I was treated pretty unfairly at my last couple of jobs, and I became resentful and bitter as a result.
I’ve learned to speak bluntly and directly since that time.
YO Neandercel, you want a side gig? I can’t pay much but I also expect very little.
Its a research/thought project.
What do you have in mind?
Email me at 12345werstersd@gmail.com
Its looking into various scizo things, you may think its fun.
Sounds like my kind of thing. I’ll email you.