Managing a dualback

From the Past Authoring program:

It is best to do the writing that is associated with this exercise by entering into a reverie. A reverie is a state of contemplation, like a daydream. Normal focused goal-oriented thought tends to be narrow, precise and expressed in words. Image-laden thought – the movie that runs in your head – is more dream- or story-like. To complete this exercise properly, you have to daydream about the past, and let thoughts and images come to you, instead of controlling them. This can be frightening, if you start to remember unpleasant events from the past. However, it can be very useful to confront things that you are afraid of, voluntarily, particularly if your fears are stopping you from living properly in the present and the future.

Voluntarily facing the remembered things you fear or that you hate is the best way of dealing with them. Don’t rush this exercise, or the ones that follow, if you decide to complete them, as well. They are not something to merely complete. You have to take your time. In a reverie, or a daydream, parts of your mind that haven’t been able to speak because of your focused concentration or moral opinions have a chance to let themselves be known. These are parts of you that need a voice. If you take your time, then you can make contact with parts of yourself that have been shut away. You will need the abilities and energies that are contained within these shut-away parts to deal with the challenges of the present and the future.

This is describing what weirdo Edenists think of as an occipital-dominant thinking style, versus the insanely high executive function mode of parietal-dominant thinking that lesser hominids can only simulate through Adderall or nicotine (acetylcholine is the characteristic neurotransmitter of melonheads). Both demand pretty heavy use (as Stephen King pointed out, the cost of talent is that it’s hungry to be exercised). And they appear to have preferred times of day within your circadian rhythm. For example, my occ demands to be in charge from 7-8:30 AM and from 10 AM to 1 PM, so I try to schedule deep work for those times. My parietal kicks in at almost exactly 4 PM and its stamina depends bigly on how much rest I’ve been getting. If I’m VERY high energy it also kicks in from 1-3.

The parietal style is pretty well described by what people call “mindfulness”, and can be thought of as frictionless executive function, which is to say a flow state for noticing patterns and making decisions without getting decision fatigue. If, like me, you generally have executive function deficiencies (I blame the endogenous personality, which AFAICT is identical to the diagnostic criteria for the ADHD-Inattentive subtype), it is very helpful to notice there’s a particular time of day when I can answer all my judgment call-type questions at no cost. In contrast, reveries are an ego-less flow state for frictionless performance, almost the polar opposite of self-consciousness and judgment tasks. Occasionally though, these will overlap. Here’s a pretty autistic example from when I was working on Operation Headache earlier today:

Steps 2 through 20 are laborious, but I wouldn’t mind them.
Have to actually make a choice here though, because that means probably talking about nothing exciting and interesting today but also working on a real accomplishment.
The other day I modeled this in my brain as a desire for both a tsundere girlfriend and the girl next door, and having to choose between them.
Naturally I decided to go for a bit of both :-D.
But for right now, it’s girl-next-door time.

This is a pretty simple example of occ serving up a visual-symbolic representation of a parietal-type dynamic tension, but they can get pretty complex. The Pyrrhic Cycle and the symbolic language stuff I do were both formulated in this mental state. I don’t trust myself to write Blockheads comics unless I’m firing on all cylinders like this, which is why those are so good. When the parietal is working in service of the occipital, it often comes out as poetry or math formulas.

Occipitals must be fed with art, rest, and by building things. Parietals must be fed with will-to-power activities and bursts of intense introspection.

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11 Responses to Managing a dualback

  1. Obadiah says:

    In addition to everything else, our dualback craniology also appears to be a perfect mirror-flip, you being Tm and me being Mt in Vejiortan’s system.

    • Aeoli Pera says:

      I’ll specialize in MLP furry porn, you specialize in homosexual HP fanfics.

      • Obadiah says:

        >you specialize in homosexual HP fanfics.

        …How did you know this?

        Expecto-My-Bone-Um 19 will be on shelves this summer–don’t wait, pre-order your copy today (talk to Terry behind the counter and he’ll take you into the back)

  2. Obadiah says:

    >When the parietal is working in service of the occipital, it often comes out as poetry or math formulas.

    Music, in my case (its closely related to both things you listed)

  3. Obadiah says:


    >acetylcholine is the characteristic neurotransmitter of melonheads

    I thought acetylcholine was mainly associated with deepsock-style introversion.

    • Aeoli Pera says:

      I can’t remember why I think this, but I blame Kensuimo. I think he made a good argument at some point.

      • kensuimo says:

        The initial reasoning was that the inverse effects of acetylcholine and GABA on cell membrane polarization seemed to match melon/starkid attitudes, i.e. separation from the world (inducing callousness/psychopathy) versus oneness with it (universalism, tang acc). It came out later that acetylcholine has effects on muscles that match parietal’s galvanizing effect physically and effects on cognition that match Aeoli’s aforementioned discernment/decision fatigue resistance.

  4. Oh, how relatable. That fits a lot with my life.

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